Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Beginnings



It's been a while. And much has happened. I'd like to apologize for my hiatus, but it would be disingenuous. I'm not sorry... I needed a break to focus on other things.

It's funny, too, because this endeavor was a "thing" in our marriage. A distraction. An interruption. Proof that I could find time for something I loved, and proof, to some, that I loved other things more than I should have dared. I fought for it. Clung to it. Depended on it.

And then I stopped. For almost two months, I stopped. Cold turkey. And, honest to God, I have no idea why. I guess, as I look back, it just didn't feel right to spend the time writing about fishing when our lives were crumbling like old stucco.

And crumble they have. But the facade is almost gone, and what's left is ... new, unfamiliar and a little scary.

Life awaits. Let's see what's out there.

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  1. This is only the beginning of the new adventures that are coming your way...New stories to tell and a new chapter to fulfill.. Looking forward to hearing all about it! :-)

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    1. Thanks kiddo... I appreciate it.

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    2. A long time you mentored me, I stumbled several times. You helped me overcome my stumbles. I know you will embrace your new beginnings. Dave Francisco

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  2. The picture summarizes perfectly the post and, as I know it, your life. You've chosen to walk on the edge rather than down the middle of the flat, safe path. And in doing so you occasionally take a tumble, and it hurts. Hurts bad. But then again, there's no better view. No better rush. No better way to feel alive.

    Keep hangin' that edge, my friend. And know that those who love truly you will always understand.

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    1. Thanks Mike... means a lot. I appreciate it.

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  3. Encouragement sent your way, brother. Peace.

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  4. Sincere best wishes "for the road least travelled".

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  5. Sincere best wishes "for the road least travelled".

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  6. Sincere best wishes "for the road least travelled".

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  7. Sincere best wishes "for the road least travelled".

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  8. Subtract anything that makes your life rich, worth living, and worth sacrificing for makes us who we are. It does take a special relationship to share time, miles, and friendships with others that makes coming home so sweet and worth it. Sorry to hear, but love sometimes is a lonely dirt road walked alone. If you don't know where you are going, any road will take you there.

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  9. Been there once, and at times I have thought I would find myself there again. It isn't easy, hurts like hell, and grabs hold of your soul like a pit viper. Yet, as my Uncle used to say, "This too shall pass.". Chris, as I have stated before, you are in my prayers...and there is always water down my way if you ever need an escape. Perhaps life has dealt you this hand for a reason...you never know what tomorrow holds. Take care of yourself Bro.

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  10. This is all too familiar. Don't hesitate to get in touch, my friend.

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  11. Chris, Wishing you the best. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

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  12. Echoing many, your words ring familiar. With all their pain as well as hope. Hang in there, Chris. Many thoughts sent your way.

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  13. I've no doubt that wherever the road leads you'll be successful. Take care Chris.

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  14. New roads are difficult to tread, keep looking forward, the adventures lie ahead. Peace for the journey, my friend.

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  15. Your words are all to familiar. Keep your spirit up and thanks for sharing such a personel time in your life.

    Rocky roads lead to green pastures.

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  16. Change is inevitable. In life as it is in relationships. And life during divorce is chaotic and devastating, the catharsis of writing seems to provide little balm. Don't despair or be concerned. The writing will return, my friend.

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  17. Chris, I am just now reading this...sorry I didn't know when I ran into you at the annual meeting. I have been there too...have my scars and mistakes to show for it.
    These words wont help much, but my life now is so much better than before. Not because my ex was the root of all the issues, but because the divorce forced me to grow. I took everything I thought I believed and re-examined it. Some things I kept, some I modified, some I tossed. But it put me on a path of learning and growth that continues to this day...and I have benefited greatly through the process, though it was painful, scary, and chaotic. Prayers and blessings to you and your kids.

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  18. OK, this is getting spooky. Last night I read your intro to Kirk Deeter's carp book and recognized myself - only I rotated between Sloans, Berkeley and Rocky Mountain Lakes since my grade school was just off Federal. Tonight I stumbled across your 20 Questions with my buddy Austin Orr that I somehow missed last year. And now this post....these particular crumbling facades sound altogether too familiar. Here's to new adventures on our oddly similar yet hitherto unconnected paths. Cheers, and TLs....

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